Morningside

Helllooo.

My life is pretty boring right now. Well not boring, but.. yeah. Good. I took a lot of naps this week and played a lot of stupid games :) I really enjoy my life.

Camp starts.. monday. Yay. I feel kind of bad cause my mom had to buy a bunch of crap I need for camp, and everything and Starstruck is so expensive.. meh.

Yesterday was Drakes birthday. He turned 3. He enjoys his Mr. Potato head.

I want to go to the beach.

Goodbyeee.

-r

Can you remember why you were so sad

Hideehidee.

I should be writing about civil rights court cases.. but that's boring :D

Uhh I really don't have anything to talk about.

Durdeeheedeee.

-r

Many the miles..

So tired. So happy.

Its over.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight was the last night of the show, and I can honestly say that all the stress was worth it. I'm going to miss everyone so much, and I'm pissed I didn't get Ryan to sign my book like everyone else! Gr! Whatever, hes the only one I didn't get. Every time I look at it I want to cry because.. its over. But it was worth it. Freakin' hugfest. I wanna cry.

It was so worth it. My dad said I made him really proud, and when we were taking our bow I could totally see he was crying. Busteddd.

Thats honestly, honestly, all I ever wanted.

So worth it.

AND I GOT FUDGE!

-r

Huckleberry prayers

Wowww its late. I should really go to bed.. whatever.

Its stressful, but whatever.
I didn't get home until 11 tonight, and last night, but whatever.
I really can't wait for summer, but whatever.
I'm leaning wayy towards not doing anything at all this summer, but whatever.
I want a milkshake, but whatever.
I need a hug, but whatever.
This one lady is so nice, shes all mommish and sweet, but whatever.
I need to write an essay and take a test in history, but whatever.
I actually only have like two weeks left in history, if I work fast, but whatever.
I'm almost free!
I actually got an A in math this semester! 92. That means I brought my grade up 9 freakin' points. Yay me.


I want to sleep for the next month.

-r

Too many sunsets I haven't seen.

I thought I wuzzzz being whorish. But apparently wasn't whorey enough for JenJones. So yeah. That was annoying/embarrassing to be one of the few people she still calls out. Rehearsals until 10 & 9 for two days next week.. then 9:30 for three days, then call time at 6 and show at 7. Woww. She said that she would be ashamed to have anyone see the show at this point though, and its two weeks away :| The costumer came and took our measurements, though! That means costumes! Exciting!

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Anyhoo. I want it to be summer. Summer is nice. Less than a month away! I'm not sure I still want to do Producers though.. I mean I do, but.. I'm just not entirely sure. I haven't even been accepted yet :\. I guess that will decide for me, so no worries.

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I sleep a lot. A lot.

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I want to go to the beach. I think I am tomorrow. I don't know. I hope so. It's pretty out. << Sentence fragments much? Mrs. Sessions would be appalled..

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I can't think of anything else. Blah.

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I just did spellcheck. I make a lot of typos...


-R

I like when we're nice to each other.

I don't have a hole in my heart ;D says the cranky dwarf guy..

..I'm cold.

I saw 17 Again. It was funny.

I can see everything now. Its really awesome. DID YOU KNOW THAT GRASS IS REALLY GREEN? If you need me to see something for you, I totally can. Just ask. :D!

OH I FORGOT. Amy came here. It was pretty fun.. WE WENT TO DISNEY WORLD, DUDE. 

Watch this -- 

-r

A heart I swear I'd recognize, is made out of my own devices.

I'm really tired, and I should go to bed, but first I wanted to write on here because I wanted to talk to somebody but its too late to call anyone.. I'm nervous :| I have to go to this fancy heart doctor that's going to tell me if my heart is exploding or if I'm diseased or something. Fun. I really want to know why I faint, but its scary. At least when I don't know whats wrong with me.. nothing is technically wrong. I just lose consciousness sometimes, that's all.

Its a pain, not being able to have my safety blanket. I don't notice it until I need it. And its a little painful when I realize I can't. Then I realize how pathetic I am and get some chocolate milk. But it still hurts sometimes. I know it shouldn't.

.. Whatever. Everyone has pacifiers, and comfort things or people or activities. Its not that weird that I miss mine.

I just wish I didn't.

And I want tomorrow to be over with. And I want to go to bed.

I can at least accomplish one of those things..

-r

New! With less brain cells than ever before.

Putting these here cause I wanted to save them someplace. They're mostly really bad, and of course the picture quality is bad.. but whatevss.
Life is interesting. I realized that everything would be a lot easier if I didn't have a brain. It really would.
I realized that I do things that make me not think a lot. Like all my uh, hobbies, I guess. They make me not think. Wow thats verbosity right there.

I should get a job.

I really like cookie dough ice cream! But you know whats better? Mint chocolate chip. Thats my all time favorite. Forever. Its green. It makes me happy :)
Ohh hey I just read my last posts and they sound really emo, but their not. Just some me being retarded ;B I'm not so confused anymore. I realized I need to accept that I'm brain damaged, and deal with it.
But really, I'm not so confused. Sort of. I just.. need to see. Its strange, you know? How it all worked out? Well. If anyone is reading this they don't know, but I do ;D! But yeah, everything always seems to work out in a way. Wow that shmaltzy. But yeah. It does. Sort of. I just need to see.

Well nothing really.. exactly worked out. At all. But.. I'm OK with that. I'm just happy to have things to be confused about.

Wow I make no sense.

-r

If you're thinking you're winning.

This weekend was weird. Good weird.

Yeah. Skating was really fun. Good.

Later that night, once I got home.. Weird.

Uhh.. yeahh.. I'm sort of confused. Um. I really want one of those milkshakes from that place in the mall. You know. Their so good.

Ugh. Its not like I should have gotten like that. I shouldn't have. I really shouldn't have. But I did. So what does that mean. That I'm retarded? Yes. But why the heck did that girl do that? Whats the point of that?

I really should just punch myself in the kidneys.

And I still want a milkshake.

Confusing. I need to get facepunched for caring.

Skating was fun, though.

-r

But in time we all forgot and we all grew.

I should be doing english assignments :D But I don't have the book I need and don't want to go to the library until later.. So I'm pretending I'm doing something worthwhile.

PATD has a really good new album.. Yeah.

I had a really weird dream. I was climbing on a giant tube and there was a kid named Breen and he was like, emo. And then he showed up at my house and my mom showed up with Drake and I was like Hii Drakelette and hes like -Glareglareglare- then he walked away all moody. And their like why is Breen here?

-r

And my lips become percussion and my fists become the rage.

I actually have plans this summer ;B Producersss here I come. Its from June.. something.. 3rd? to July 3rd. But the shows are.. July 3rd, 4th, and 5th. I think. I dont know.

I got financial aid so I can actually do it, but I don't know when auditions are. Or if I need to audition, cause not everyone does. Gah. I have to singg... I'll learn I guess :D maybe I won't break too many ear drums.

Gahh and Salesman is only a couple months away now.. We're almost finished blocking. That's scary. Like, its soon? Whuutt? A little under two months.

This summer will be fun :) I plan on doing absolutely nothing whenever possible. Ugh and I really need to improve my drawing skills, cause it took me like three days to complete a 3/4ths portrait. Its alright.. hey I should put a picture up. Why, you may ask. I don't know. Because I spent a lot of time on it. Its not great, though.

Ohh and theres freshmen orientation this monday.. 5 - 8? I think. That should be.. interesting. I wonder how it'll be. Oddly, I'm really not nervous at all. I just want to get all my plans set and then.. Just do it. Cause its so not a big deal.

Ohhhh and i'm taking this aweshum psychology course ;D I'm such a dork. I get excited by knowledge. Shnerk.

I wonder what I'll do this weekend..

-r

Flaaaaavaa

Nicholas Caaage, drink your problems awaaaay.

Maui Tai Boxing is like.. the more kick-ass hardcore cousin of.. anything hardcore.

That is allll. For nowwwwwww.

-r

Makes me warble and rise.. like a sparrow..

Howdy.

Its been a while.

Life is good. Really good. Stuff happens and doesn't happen, and its good. :D That's so vague. But really, I'm just enjoying life I guess, but I'm sure tomorrow I'll hate it. Mood swings suck. Honestly, they're majorly annoying.

Some people have really bad taste in music. Just sayin'. I love people who have weirdly good tastes in musics though. Joanna Newsom is great. Except you have to get used to her voice.. and how random her songs are.. shes basically like a five year old with no musical training and a harp. I love her.

I'm going to list some more people I like.. Sara Bareilles and Ingrid Michaelson when I want to hear something more pop-ish. The Postal Service and She & Him are mellow, and great. Joanna Newsom (Obviously) and Regina Spektor are great too. Hmm.. Dethklok.

I like running into people randomly. Its really awkward but.. amusing? I saw a couple people I know while I was out today.. found out one works at Publix... whattt.

-r

Down in the valley..

Wow, I haven't blogged in forevverr. Nothing really exciting happened.. well, stuff happened, but nothing unusually fab.

Uh, we're finding out our parts in Death of a Salesman this week :D I hope I'm Helen(Howard). I didn't really get to read anything so far though, just a couple lines, so that makes me think I probably won't get a great part. Well, all the parts are good.. just some are really.. really, really small compared to the others.

Uhh... other than that life is.. lifin' along? I don't know.. stuff happens and its all great and all but nothing is truly worth writing here, because nobodies really reading this.. so.. yeah..

I've been drawing a lot. like, everyday. So that's sort of why the icon is up there. Cause when I draw I forget what I'm doing and then I look up and the page is filled with random scribbles or words or names. I guess I zone out and whatever I would be thinking gets put on paper. And then other times I forget everything else until I finish a drawing and I look up and it's two hours later :P.

I really need to get some conte pencils... and charcoal. and pastels. especially conte and charcoal, though. Maybe my mom could take me to the store later.. well, I don't know where they even sell conte and charcoal pencils. or hard pastel pencils.

I think I'm ganna do camp barn this summer. should be fun. and get me used to being some place for most of the day.. well maybe not most of the day, but for long periods of time. i think its from 9 to 4, and south fork is from like 7 or 8 to 3? so actually, about the same hours. but i'd actually be on the bus by at least 6:30, cause i think school starts at 7:30ish. and i wouldn't get home till.. like 3:30? Cause i know it lets out at like 2:55 but the bus to my stop makes a bunch of other stops. so yeah, like 3:30ish would be when I get home.

Um. giant ramble^^

The point of that was to say that if I save my money until summer and pay for half of the tuition (I think it's like 475 including registration, for 4 weeks) my parents could probably pay the other half and I could go. And since its about the same hours as school, I could get used to that, and getting up a little earlier than usual. and it would be fun :D

And its in the middle of the summer, so I could get the volunteer hours I want, too. and still have plenty of free time before my life gets super structured :) Oi, I can't wait for summer. I just want my courses to be over with and funntime. I got high A's for the first semesters of science and english.. and I'm about to finish the first semesters of math and history.. but I'm definitely getting a B in math :(.

I wonder if high school classes will be easier. Well, obviously not, but I mean I wonder if regular school is harder than FLVS.

I'm actually less nervous about high school now that its closer. Even though its really far away. Because I know that if I hate it, I can stop after freshman year. And if I really really hate it than I can stop at the semester break, but I think I should at least give it a full two semesters. And I know i'll like, make new friends and stuff and of course still keep old friends and see them like, every weekend. and talk to them. constantly. :D

Anyway. Right now I should be working on a history assignment. bleh. I'm going to go watch really stupid TV instead :D:D:D

-r

Demonic Robotics!

HAAAAAPPPPPYYYYYYY NEEWWW YEAARRR! ITS 2009!!!

:D

My New Years Eve was fab. Parttehh.

My New Years resolutions are:
1. Stand up for myself (and others) more.
2. Be tougher.
3. Not to stress over unimportant things.
4. Have a really fun year.


-r