A heart I swear I'd recognize, is made out of my own devices.

I'm really tired, and I should go to bed, but first I wanted to write on here because I wanted to talk to somebody but its too late to call anyone.. I'm nervous :| I have to go to this fancy heart doctor that's going to tell me if my heart is exploding or if I'm diseased or something. Fun. I really want to know why I faint, but its scary. At least when I don't know whats wrong with me.. nothing is technically wrong. I just lose consciousness sometimes, that's all.

Its a pain, not being able to have my safety blanket. I don't notice it until I need it. And its a little painful when I realize I can't. Then I realize how pathetic I am and get some chocolate milk. But it still hurts sometimes. I know it shouldn't.

.. Whatever. Everyone has pacifiers, and comfort things or people or activities. Its not that weird that I miss mine.

I just wish I didn't.

And I want tomorrow to be over with. And I want to go to bed.

I can at least accomplish one of those things..

-r

New! With less brain cells than ever before.

Putting these here cause I wanted to save them someplace. They're mostly really bad, and of course the picture quality is bad.. but whatevss.
Life is interesting. I realized that everything would be a lot easier if I didn't have a brain. It really would.
I realized that I do things that make me not think a lot. Like all my uh, hobbies, I guess. They make me not think. Wow thats verbosity right there.

I should get a job.

I really like cookie dough ice cream! But you know whats better? Mint chocolate chip. Thats my all time favorite. Forever. Its green. It makes me happy :)
Ohh hey I just read my last posts and they sound really emo, but their not. Just some me being retarded ;B I'm not so confused anymore. I realized I need to accept that I'm brain damaged, and deal with it.
But really, I'm not so confused. Sort of. I just.. need to see. Its strange, you know? How it all worked out? Well. If anyone is reading this they don't know, but I do ;D! But yeah, everything always seems to work out in a way. Wow that shmaltzy. But yeah. It does. Sort of. I just need to see.

Well nothing really.. exactly worked out. At all. But.. I'm OK with that. I'm just happy to have things to be confused about.

Wow I make no sense.

-r

If you're thinking you're winning.

This weekend was weird. Good weird.

Yeah. Skating was really fun. Good.

Later that night, once I got home.. Weird.

Uhh.. yeahh.. I'm sort of confused. Um. I really want one of those milkshakes from that place in the mall. You know. Their so good.

Ugh. Its not like I should have gotten like that. I shouldn't have. I really shouldn't have. But I did. So what does that mean. That I'm retarded? Yes. But why the heck did that girl do that? Whats the point of that?

I really should just punch myself in the kidneys.

And I still want a milkshake.

Confusing. I need to get facepunched for caring.

Skating was fun, though.

-r

But in time we all forgot and we all grew.

I should be doing english assignments :D But I don't have the book I need and don't want to go to the library until later.. So I'm pretending I'm doing something worthwhile.

PATD has a really good new album.. Yeah.

I had a really weird dream. I was climbing on a giant tube and there was a kid named Breen and he was like, emo. And then he showed up at my house and my mom showed up with Drake and I was like Hii Drakelette and hes like -Glareglareglare- then he walked away all moody. And their like why is Breen here?

-r